Going Strong this late in the game.

3.2lbs this week! That's 3 weeks of over 3lb. loss. I'm amazed that I can take that much off a week this late in the game. Next month will be one year since I began this journey and looking back it's been a really good year. Hopefully, by the time the one year mark passes I will be down 100lbs which is awesome. I feel 150% better than I did this time last year. I'm hoping I can say the same next year at this time. Zumba really hurt on Monday after the gym but yesterday's trip to the gym was really good. I don't hurt as bad today but I'm still soar. Zumba again tonight. I just keep telling myself that it will be worth the pain in the end and I know it will be. People are really taking notice of my weight loss now. I think my time at the gym has made more a visible impact on my body than the entire year of weight loss. No one notices the slow reduction of size but define a muscle and people see it right away. I'm excited for this new routine. I only hope that 5 days a week of exercise is something I can keep up with. I think at this point in my life I can. I need to do this for me.

Marveling at the wonders of life....

It's not weigh in day yet but I felt like today is a good day to write. Have you ever sat on a dock at the edge of a lake as the sun rose, sipping a cup of coffee as the lake turned to gold? I have and sitting there I have felt complete and total peace. Although short lived that is the type of serenity I always look for and rarely ever find. Today in the midst of my normal chaotic Monday morning I was amazed to find that I have that exact feeling of serenity. I am astonished that I could be feeling this in my everyday routine. What is making me feel this way? I am attributing this bubble of peace to my newest lifestyle change.On Friday I decided to start going to the gym. I've had my membership for almost 2 years now so I figured I may as well start using it. I was at the gym for an hour and fifteen minutes and I had an amazing work out. Although I am still very heavy my Zumba classes have left me in much better shape than my previous trips to the gym and I found I got much more out of it. I returned to the gym yesterday for another work out. I took my youngest son with me who is 16 and weighs about the same as I do now. I'm committed to helping him get healthy with me. He is a couple of inches taller than me and he has less to lose so I think by the end of the summer he'll be in really good shape. We spent 2 hours at the gym and we are going to go 3 days a week together. My muscles although sore feel amazing. I feel like I have muscles I didn't even know existed. I have more energy than I have had in months. You always hear diet and exercise is the way to lose weight. We know it and we fight it, always looking for a quick easy way. If everyone could feel this good then no one would fight it anymore. I can't wait to go back to the gym on Tuesday but for tonight I have Zumba.

Everyday a new victory.....sort of.

Today's weigh in leaves me 3.4lbs lighter and now at a total loss of 91lbs. Just nine more to go until the big 100. I feel good and I'm happy but I'm not willing to give myself too much of a pat on the back. When I start congratulating myself on a job well done that is when I'm going to get lazy. I'm not even half way to my total goal yet so I have to look at this for what it is. Yes I've done well and yes I feel better in some ways. In other ways I feel awful. I can feel every ounce of fat that clings to my body and I hate it. I want it all off. I'm not going to stop until I can no longer feel the dense hanging flab that still clings to me. When I am tone and my skin feels smooth and tight then I'll be happy. I refuse to hear the people who say it won't happen. Why can't I be the most perfect version of myself. I'm horrified by how often people throw crutches at me. "let's face it we'll never be a super model" So what? That means I shouldn't strive to be the best me I can be? I don't buy it. I'm not looking to be a super model. I just want to be happy with myself. I want to be happy to try on new clothes and I want to see myself in the mirror and be able to say 'wow i really look good' I don't think that's unrealistic even if my definition of looking good is a bit more judgemental than other people would be. I know in my heart I can be far better than what I am today and so the journey continues.

In a funk.

Hey! Today is once again weigh in day. I lost 3.4lbs. No cheat day this week and I feel good. So why am I in a funk? I have no clue. I think the time change is messing with me a little. I'm really tired. I can really see a difference in my arms, legs and face. I would think that feeling this much better would put me in a good mood but instead I'm totally in a funk. I'm hoping its related to the rainy weather and that I will come out of it when the sun returns. I guess we'll see. On the brighter side, I have 63 weeks left til I reach my final goal. That's assuming a 2lb per week lose of course. That's also with the understanding that nothing will changes as far as my eating and exercise habits are concerned. It's something to look forward to though. Until next week, be well.


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I am a work in progress....

Today I weighed in to find a gain of 2.4lbs. I actually feel better about this than I do the 3.8lb loss last week. This makes sense. I was bad again over the weekend and now I'm paying for it as I should be. Now I need to check myself and stay on track so I can come back with a loss next week. I feel really good. I have a lot of energy and I can see thinning in my thighs and arms. I've been getting a lot of compliments lately about how much better I look which makes me feel really good. People should pay more attention and compliment each other more. I'm going to start making sure I compliment at least one person everyday from now on.


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