One year well spent

Today's weigh in marks 1year and 2 days since this journey began. This week after really working hard I lost 4.6Lbs bringing my total weight loss to 101lbs!!! Not bad for one year. Hopefully by this time next year I will be approaching my goal weight.

so close I can almost taste it.

Happy Wednesday all! After a difficult week where I missed Sunday's gym day and arrived late to Zumba on Monday I was unsure what to expect on the scale. I have been noticing small changes. My wrists are suddenly half the size they once were and my forearms seemed to thin out over night. My legs are getting firmer and smaller. Even my most challenging area, the lower abdomen, finally seems to be getting smaller. Of course after this much weight loss I'm sure it has all been getting smaller by degrees but now I can see it. I feel much better given all that so I was very pleased when I got on the scale to find I had lost 3.4lbs. Big improvement over the last 2 weeks. Now, I am 3.8lbs away from the magic 100lbs lost milestone. (not one of my 12 milestones but still kind of a big deal). I don't expect that I will be able to take that all off next week but hopefully with in 2 weeks I will be able to say I lost 100lbs. Then I will start all over again with the next hundred. I can do it. :)

Looking at the big picture.

I'm a little frustrated today at the fact that I only lost 1.4lbs after all the working out I've been doing. I am feeling the difference though and I look thinner so I'll just ride it out. 7lbs. more til 100lbs. Feels like it is taking forever to get there.

I titled this looking at the big picture because I was talking to a friend yesterday who is around 120lbs give or take a couple of pounds. She is always struggling with those last 5lbs and she was upset yesterday because she had gained 2 sizes and her heavier friends just blew her off because they thought she was already thin. I really felt for her because I think that heavy people in general just don't get it. Someone with only 5lbs to lose will have to work harder than I have had  to lose the 93lbs. I have. Those last few are awful and it doesn't take as much weight for a thinner person to go up a size. When your really big 30lbs is one size but when you get down that small 5lbs is all the difference in the world. I also think that heavy people spend too much time 'wishing the were thin' rather than really asking themselves 'what am I willing to give up to be thin'. Ask anyone who is more than 100lbs over weight and I bet they would tell you anything. The truth is they wouldn't. You know you are really ready to lose all the weight when you can look at your favorite foods and say I am willing to never eat them again to be thin. It doesn't mean that you won't ever eat them but to truly be willing to give them up that's when you have the right mind set. The other thing is to have a firm goal in mind and stick to it. I want to be 120lbs. I don't care if it's 'too thin' or less than I should weigh. It's where I want to be. I can sympathize with my friend because I know the last few pounds is going to be the hardest to lose and I will not be satisfied because I'm close enough. I guess my opinion is that if you're looking at the big picture we all need support and encouragement. Heavy or thin losing weight is hard work.

Procrastination, one of my many fine traits.

Did you miss me yesterday? I really did mean to write but the day got away from me. It's harder to motivate myself to write when I've had a bad week. Last week was definitely bad. No Zumba classes this week due to spring break and no gym on Sunday due to Easter. I feel like a jelly fish. That along with a fairly regular pattern of gaining every third week and here I sit with a 2.6lbs gain. It would be more frustrating if I didn't know next week will be a good one. I've noticed that since August I have gained in the third week. Some months it's been an every other week gain but at the end of the day I'm ahead. Now, that leaves me in a position where I need to lose 8.4lbs in the next eighteen days. Well, I don't have to but it would be nice. In eighteen days I will have reached the 1 year mark. It doesn't really feel like it's been that long since I began this journey but it has. It would be nice to have lost 100lbs in a year but if not I'll get there. It's such a big change for just one little year. I'm just starting to get to the point where I can look in the mirror and see an attractive woman there. I no longer feel like a beast. Before I can honestly say I didn't feel human. Now, I feel like a heavy woman but a woman at least. I still have so far to go. I know I'll get there. It's just a matter of time.