and man are my pants tight. The day of my trip i weighed in with a 4oz loss and was pretty surprised since I seem to be completely unable to follow the rules at the moment. After the trip I had gained 2.6lbs. Damn you red wine. This week I completely fell apart with Thanksgiving eating that went on for 4 days and left me unable to even string 2 full days of healthy eating together. I seem to be falling apart when I get home after doing fine all day. My pants are noticeably tighter and my cheeks are swollen. I'm not feeling particularly well. It's like I fell down a slide and I'm grasping as slippery walls. I am currently 20lbs over my lowest weight. It's depressing because I really should have been 20lbs in the other direction by now. I've lost that determination that was driving me and I need to find a way to get it back before it gets any worse. I'm hoping that over the next 2 weeks I can keep myself at least from gaining. I know Christmas will be bad right through new years. Then what? I don't know. I'm thinking about heading back to the gym starting next week. I know that will help me feel a lot better and keep the gaining at bay. Until next week......Be well.
M
