Rude Awakening

This past Friday my family and I had family portraits done. You can imagine where I'm going with this. I was mortified. I had joked prior to the picture being taken that this would be my before picture. I figure even though I have lost almost 60lbs no one really needs to see how bad I looked before. When I saw the picture of myself my heart broke. No one likes pictures of themselves I get that but this was worse than I could have imagined. I sat there staring at what basically looked like what I was before I lost any weight. I thought no wonder people barely notice. I'm hideous. The thing that bothered me the most was that when I look in the mirror I see the changes but I didn't in that picture. Truth be told the mirror lies so I was faced with a very harsh reality. One I already knew but none the less hard to face. I am at a completely unacceptable weight and I need to continue. I guess in a way it was good for me to be reminded that I'm not any where near done yet. Still, it hurt to know that all the hard work just hasn't made as much of an improvement as I thought. In time I hope I'll be able to look at a picture of myself and say 'that looks nice' but I'm afraid I'm a long way off from that day yet.