Yesterday was a really tough day. Not eating wise just life wise. I had a bit of an epiphany. I decided that I don't want to be an accountant anymore. Apparently changing my body isn't enough for me. I need to change my whole life. So, I've decided to go back to school to study environmental science and try my hand at saving the world. In comparison loosing a couple hundred pounds seems like a breeze :)  I had a really good work out at zumba yesterday. I don't know why the whole world doesn't do it. Actually i do. I thought it was kinda dumb before i tried it but now i have the best time at it and i look forward to it every week. I'd like to thank those of you who have joined me in my journey. It's nice to know someone is listening. :)

Weigh in day again. It has been ridiculously hot here recently as in most of the US. As a result I feel under calories again. I never know how this will pan out on the scale but this morning I was optimistic having notices several places shrinking on me this week. I was shocked when I stood on the scale and found that it was reading 3lbs heavier. I knew that couldn't be right so i stepped off. Gave it a good kick and got on again to see a half pound loss. Needless to say that shook my confidence a bit. I'm trying to focus on the way I feel today which is great rather than what my crazy scale is feeding me. I think maybe I'll invest in a new one. Since that one is old and clearly lying to me and trying to sabotage my efforts. Evil scale. Planning to work extra hard at zumba tonight just to be safe. :)

I was thinking this morning about how much easier things are for me now. Simple things that should have always been easy but weren't because all the excess weight. I'm happy that things are getting better. It makes me feel like even though I've only just begun this journey I'm doing well. I notice my hips are finally beginning to get smaller. That makes me extremely happy because my waist and hip are wear most of my weight is not that i don't have too much everywhere else as well. At least it's starting to melt away and soon, although it feels like forever, all of it will be gone. :)

Hi world,
 I would apologize for not having written in a few days except i don't have any subscribers and I'm pretty sure all the views i have so far are just random searches that glance and then go away. so since no one is really listening I'll continue on talking to myself. This week was really hectic. Work was really busy and even though i had 2 days off I came back to such a mess that I still felt like I worked a full week. Good news is I lost another pound and a half. That makes 38 total. I feel really good. The zumba classes are really helping to make me feel stronger. I'm still struggling to get all my calories in staying mostly around 1000 instead of 1200. I never thought I'd have a problem eating enough but I'm really never hungry anymore. It's kinda cool. I also realized that i have broken my pattern of only loosing a half pound every third week which is awesome. Any way the weekend is here and i have to watch the clock to try to remind myself to eat. 10am and i just ate breakfast. That is so bad. hopefully I'll remember lunch before 4. Talk to myself soon. :)

First Milestone Achieved! Another awesome weigh in day. I lost 3.5lbs. I'm thinking this zumba class is making a difference so I'm excited to start my twice a week classes beginning with tonight. I feel really good and I've met my first of 12 milestones set for myself. So this weekend I buy new socks. It's an odd reward but i need them so now i get them. :)

Hi, took a little time off for the 4th. I found it a real struggle this week to get all my calories in so as a result i lost an amazing 5.5lbs. I'm eating better so far today but I'm afraid that next week this will cause a gain. I've decided to go ahead and do zumba 2 nights a week. Hopefully this will keep the gain at bay. Wish me luck. :)

So, I went to Zumba last night. I wore heavy sweat pants which is not advisable in 90+ degree heat. I felt like i didn't work hard enough the week before because I didn't feel the pain afterward. I set out this week to really work it. I sweat hard and I took the squats as deep as I could stand and the lunges as high as I could. I worked hard and about 2/3 through the class I started to feel sick and dizzy and it was everything I could do to make it to the end. I don't advise that approach to exercise at all. I felt awful all night long. Today however I don't really ache but I feel stronger. I think I'm gonna start doing it twice a week. :) I will pace myself though. No more overdoing it.

Wow, that was a very hard weekend. I went to the movies on Friday where i've gotten in the habit of only getting water but afterward, my friend wanted me to have drinks with her and i was so tempted. I ended up drinking more water so it was all good. The next day however found me wanting to drink again. It was warm and sunny and just the kind of day my husband and I would have sat on our balcony and drank beer and listened to music. Somehow though I didn't do it and, by yesterday I barely got over 700 calories which is not good either. I skipped the gym but i'm not going to beat myself up over that. I have Zumba tonight and I will just have to work extra hard. Here's to restrengthening my resolve. :)