The day before....

Tomorrow's weigh in is looming over my head. I had a great Thanksgiving and for 3 days I ate and drank to my hearts content. By Sunday I felt horrible. Eating like that made me feel sick and sluggish. I'm still feeling the tired run down effects and I'm thinking no pie is worth this. I think I'll be more careful at Christmas time. The lack of energy alone is making me miserable. I'm sure tomorrow will be a nice kick in the head as well.
So, I'm sitting hear thinking about all the things people say about being fat to give themselves an excuse to be that way. I am not big boned. If I were that would not give me an excuse to be more than 10lbs overweight so where is the logic there. I do not have a slow metabolism. I did but eating better and more often made it faster. Problem solved. Losing weight after 30 is so much harder? Only because we get old and lazy. Do the work the weight comes off. It's that simple. At the end of the day it comes down to do you want it more than anything else? I always thought I did but it turned out that I didn't want it more than a slice of pizza or a piece of cake. Now I do. Now I want it more than any food ever made and ache ever felt. I want it so bad I'm gonna do it. I like having energy to do what I want and I like feeling a little better everyday. This feeling that I'm having now, I hate it. I'm sure in a few more days I'll be back to feeling good and I don't think all the Christmas cookies in the world could tempt me after this.

Overkill. :)

I wanted to lose 1.8lbs in order to hit the 70lb mark. That was the deal to be able to enjoy Thanksgiving weekend. I am very pleased to announce I lost 4.6lbs. I am amazed to say the least. I did eat very light this week and I worked my butt off. Success feels truly sweet. So a happy Thanksgiving to all. Until next week.

1.8lbs to Thanksgiving!

Today I lost 1.6lbs. This is especially impressive when you consider the fact that last Friday I drank beer with my husband. I thought I was done for. I'm very happy that although I seem to be faltering every other week at this point, I am still losing weight. I don't want this to be a habit however. I am giving myself a little break over the holidays. So I made myself the deal that I can splurge Thanksgiving weekend if I can hit 70lbs lost by next Wednesday. I have 1.8lbs more to lose to make that goal. I'm going to try really hard although I think at this point I've decided I'm going to have my three day splurge regardless. I'd like to make it just for my own personal satisfaction. I am noticing now a significant increase in my energy level. I'm trying to use that during Zumba classes to get a better work out. My apartment is much cleaner as a result too which is always nice. I feel stronger and I can see my legs really beginning to shape up. I just wish this belly would go. All in good time. :)

Reinforcing bad behavior

It's a beautiful day! I'm very ashamed to say that I cracked open another bottle of wine on Halloween. I also ate 2 cupcakes and 3 pieces of candy. I was however very good the rest of the week and snuck in an extra day of Zumba. All this amounted to a shocking 2.6lbs. loss. I'm thrilled of course but i don't recommend the naughty behavior to anyone. I feel like I am breaking my rules a little to often now so I have to put myself in check. Of course with the holidays approaching and the biggest food day of the year only 2 weeks away I'm worried. So, rather than stress I've made a deal with myself. If I can lose another 3.4lbs. by Thanksgiving, I will give myself a two day pass for Thanksgiving to eat what I want. Two weeks to do so not unreasonable. I'm not going to go crazy mind you but I will have wine and a small piece of pumpkin pie. I'm feeling really good today and I think I have a pretty good handle on myself. I still know I can't be trusted but I also know that this time is it. I'm going all the way to skinnyville. So a day here or there when I break my rules won't break me.