That's a load off....

Wow! My bad behavior didn't do any more damage than last weeks gain. I lost 2.4lbs this week which covers what I gained and plus another pound off. I'm feeling pretty happy about that. Plus I'm finally out of the 70s so I feel better. Seemed like I was there for months. Now I'm ready for a quick trip through the 60s and into the 50s before Christmas. That would be nice. :) 64lbs down and 149 to go. Wow I still have a whole person to lose. I can do it!

la la la whatever!

I've been avoiding my weekly post because I went on my trip to Maine and I had a blast. I drank wine with my bff and I ate all the things I'm not supposed to eat. The rules are nothing white, no bread, no cheese and no butter. I had everything except the butter. I did get sick one day because my stomach was not used to eating like that. I gained 1lb. 4oz. and truthfully I'm thankful that's all it was. I came home and got right back on track but I fear for Wednesday. I'm concerned that the previous week isn't done catching up with me. I'm also fearful that Zumba will be cancelled tonight because of hurricane Sandy. At least I have my DVDs at home now so i can still Zumba even if there is no class. Take care and I'll talk to you on Wednesday.

Last night I had the strangest dream.....

Seriously, last night I dreamt I was so wide I couldn't fit through doors. Anxiety much. Wow. I just had to share. I woke up thinking WTF! Funny thing is people are commenting today about how they are really seeing the weight loss now. Weird. This weekend I'm off to Massachusetts and then on to Maine to see my bff. I'm excited but worried about eating things that are bad for me. At least I know there is a Panera's where I'm going in Massachusetts so I'll be eating there tonight. I'm just afraid my bff is my wine buddy so I will be tempted. Wish me luck. Maybe that dream will keep me from doing anything stupid.

Finally :D

Finally, a happy post. I feel like the last several have been real downers and for that i apologize. It is an inevitable fact that there will be tough times in ones life. I'm happy to say that today is not that time. I feel good. The feared plateau was averted. I zumba'd a total of 5 times last week which was awesome. I also have begun doing crunches. 60 of them a day. sounds like a lot but i break into 3 sets of twenty and they are not terrible because i do them in my chair at work simply by leaning back tightening my core and pulling my knees and chest together. Every little bit i can do helps and this week it helped to the tune of 3.4lbs!!!! I couldn't be more thrilled. Headed for Zumba again tonight. Here's hoping I can keep the ugly plateau monster away.



On my way  down once more :)



Plateau.

Well here we are. Six months in and at a dead stand still. Well not a complete stand still. I lost 4oz. Frustrating to say the least. I have zumba 3 times this week so hopefully that will help. I also have my DVDs so I can zumba everyday at home. Hopefully, that will make the difference. I'm trying to stay positive. I knew eventually a plateau would come I was just really hoping it would be much farther down the road. I'll look at it this way. I started at the top of a 215 foot rock. I've climbed down 60feet and now I'm resting on a flat ridge. When I'm ready I'll get up and climb down some more, but while i rest I'm not taking off my gear. I'll keep it on so when it's time to descend I'll be ready.

into the grind

Today's weigh in while at least better than last week was not so impressive. I lost 1.6lbs this week which is only .4 over 2 weeks ago. At least i recovered what I had inexplicably gained but still nothing to write home about. I was going to cancel the gym membership I have held for the last year because I have Zumba. Now, I realize if I'm truly going to take off all this weight and have the body I want then I can't be complacent or lazy. I have to go all out. So tonight I Zumba and tomorrow I hit the gym. It's go time. Six months in and I can fall back and give up or I can step up and get it done. I choose to step it up!

Rude Awakening

This past Friday my family and I had family portraits done. You can imagine where I'm going with this. I was mortified. I had joked prior to the picture being taken that this would be my before picture. I figure even though I have lost almost 60lbs no one really needs to see how bad I looked before. When I saw the picture of myself my heart broke. No one likes pictures of themselves I get that but this was worse than I could have imagined. I sat there staring at what basically looked like what I was before I lost any weight. I thought no wonder people barely notice. I'm hideous. The thing that bothered me the most was that when I look in the mirror I see the changes but I didn't in that picture. Truth be told the mirror lies so I was faced with a very harsh reality. One I already knew but none the less hard to face. I am at a completely unacceptable weight and I need to continue. I guess in a way it was good for me to be reminded that I'm not any where near done yet. Still, it hurt to know that all the hard work just hasn't made as much of an improvement as I thought. In time I hope I'll be able to look at a picture of myself and say 'that looks nice' but I'm afraid I'm a long way off from that day yet.