Food is not entertainment. That is such a big point in eating better. I eat to sustain not to have fun. Having been heavy most of my life I can say that not only am I a total food addict but I used it as a source of fun and entertainment. I see people around me now doing it all the time. Some people can afford to do that but, for someone like me who sees a cake or something cheesy and greasy and gets an endorphin high, I can't look at food that way anymore. I have to change and I think i'm well on my way to seeing food as a means to sustain and nothing more. Bread, Cheese, Butter, and Sugar are my enemies. Although i still get sugar in my fruits and yogart I have cut the other 3 out almost completely. I'm not saying that that is the answer to everyone's problem but it's my answer. I think everyone needs to find the answer that is right for them.

Today is a really good day. I feel good. It's been a while since I could say that. I'm feeling odd little places where i have lost weight too which is nice. I feel it on the side of my knee which is just weird. I also notice that the fat on my lower abdomen looks more noticable when I sit down which means the fat in my upper abdomen has gone down. That is pretty cool. Hopefully next weigh in I can hit the 30lb marker. Still so far to go but I'm not gonna stop til I reach my goal. Oh the Liver has fat on it so that needs a diet too. :)

2lbs. this week!!! That makes a total of 27.5lbs. It's a start anyway. Sometimes this feels like such a long road I feel like i'll never reach the end. I need to find the strength to be happy with every small victory. 2lbs is a victory and as long as I don't lose hope all will be worth it in the end.

I apologize that another day ended up being several days later. I only made it to the gym on Saturday. My liver is not doing well so that is a little set back as i feel tired alot more lately. I have Zumba tonight so i'm sure that will kisck my butt again. Still eating well so hopefully the weigh in on Wednesday will still be good. I'm not feeling like I lost much but who knows. Started eating greek yogart yesterday. Not the most fabulous tasting stuff out there but it's full of good things so I decided to add it to my routine and see if it doesn't help me stay healthy. Only time will tell. In the mean time i'm sticking to 1200 calories and doing my best. ttyl. M.

Crazy tired today. The heat is ridiculous. We'll chat another day. :)

Zumba kicked my butt. I loved it though and i will continue to go to that class every week just cause it's fun. I weighed in this morning to find I had only lost half a pound. These are the weeks that really kick me in the head. It's so frustrating because i did more good things this week and lost less. I'm hoping i will see the results next week. I refuse to let the scale rule my mood. A loss is a loss after all. It's just too easy to be hard on myself. Onward at all cost.

What an incredible weekend!!! The weather was perfect and I began both days by going to the gym and getting on an exercise bike for 25min. I felt so good I went home and cleaned the house. The more I did the harder I found it to sit still. As a result I did all the work early and found I had lots of time to enjoy myself. That was a refreshing switch. I'm really excited today because I'm going to try Zumba for the first time. I'm hoping it will be lots of fun. At the very least it will get me moving and that is the main goal. Stay in motion.

It's Friday! I love Fridays because I get to wear jeans to work. Jeans are a big deal when you're loosing weight. They can be your best friend or your worst enemy. Today I love them. When I put them on this morning they were an instant ego boost. When I started this journey they were tight all over. Today they are loose and they are sitting lower on my hips. As a result they are too long and I'm rockin' the gangsta fab today.  I have to keep pulling them up and every time I do it makes me smile. It's a great feeling to know I'm thinner than I was just last week. That should be the first rule of weight loss. Buy Jean that are a little snug or at least that fit just right. They will emphasize even the smallest successes.

Good Morning world. It's yet another day in the wonderful world of weight loss. Today I'm less tired than i have been most mornings for the last ten years or so. I feel some very subtle changes in my body. Although I have a long way to go and I'm still very heavy I feel thinner. Not thin mind you but a little thinner today than i felt yesterday and that is a very good feeling.

Today is my weigh in day. I lost another 2lbs. bringing me to 25lbs total. I weigh in every Wednesday. This all began 8 weeks ago when a co-worker mentioned she was starting weight watchers. I had been thinking about loosing weight for a while but i just didn't have that moment when the switch flips and I'm ready. Well our boss heard her talking and said we should lose 50lbs. together. We all agreed and now here we are 8 weeks later at a combined 66lb loss. They are both involved in weight watchers but i am a calorie counter. I also watch sugar and fat and try to trade those calories for protein and fiber whenever possible.  There is nothing easy about losing weight. It's hard work. In the end though the payoff is worth it. :)

Where to start? For the last 8 weeks I have completely changed the way i eat and how I look at food. I don't eat because i love food or because i'm bored anymore. Now food is just a source to stay alive and I eat it only to keep my metabolism working. So far I have lost 25lbs. This would be wonderful, and really it is, except for the fact that I have almost 200 more to go. I've been keeping a diary of how things are going but I decided to go ahead and put it out here in the hope that maybe my successes and failures will help others along the way. So, welcome to my blog.