Not fooling myself

I gained an even 5lbs this week. It was bound to catch up with me. I'm surprised I have haven't had this big of a gain sooner. I am doing the squat challenge and I'm back to Zumba but I'm not fool enough to believe any of that is muscle gain. I desparately need to find a way to turn things around but how? I don't know.
M

I'm still here

Over the last three weeks I've gained a little over 2lbs. That doesn't sound like much but I swear it is the heaviest 2lbs of my life. it feels like 40lbs. I'm seriously lacking any motivation and I disparately need to be challenged. Apparently I can't challenge myself. I did begin the swat challenge yesterday which my thighs are now screaming about. Not as bad as they would be if not for Zumba I'm sure. It's working leg muscles I didn't even know I had. I think that needs to be a daily routine even after the 30days. I'm not giving up although I've been eating terribly. I still believe I will find a way to turn this around. Hopefully before I can't get into my pants anymore. I'm close and I'm sweating it. Just not enough to motivate myself to do anything about it. Until next time.....be well.
M

The Game is on again!

OK, I gained 2.6lbs this week. For those of you who haven't been keeping track that is over  9lbs this month. I am now a total of 46.4lbs up from my lowest lose last summer. I woke up this morning with the most awful pains. Not just muscle and joint pain which I have been having but aches and cramping all through my core. (not monthly sort of cramps.) I'm hurting and all I can think is this is what it feels like to die very slowly. Enough. It's time for me to stop screwing around and get back to business. I had planed to make chicken and rice tonight but as we all know rice is white and therefore a no no. I will make it for my kids but I will either just eat the chicken or I'll have a lean cuisine. It's time for the strict regiment I held myself too before. Obey the rule and lose the weight. Period. No cheat days, no giving myself a break and NO celebrating. Until I meet my goal there is nothing to be proud of because it can all slip away so easily. Until next week, be well.
M