Finding will power when you've lost it.

Hope. I'm hoping I can regain my will power. After last weeks big gain I decided to return to the gym. Instead I ate a bunch of things I shouldn't have and didn't go to the gym at all. I did get back to Zumba after a week off which I believe was a big part of that big gain. My pants are all feeling tighter and I feel awful. Somehow, through no effort of my own I lost 2oz this week. It's not much but the fact that there was any loss is amazing.  Weight loss is like a super slide. Climbing the later is the loss and gaining is as fast as the ride down. All the hard work of losing 100lbs and I feel like I could gain it all back in a matter of weeks. That's a scary thought. I feel the gain in my gut and it feels gross. I'm hoping that feeling will help me regain my will power. Zumba tonight, that helps. Now I just need to find my way back to the gym. I'm afraid that won't happen until after Thanksgiving. Until then however, I can stop eating so badly. I most likely won't have Internet access the later half of next week so it will be a while before I write again. Unless I decide to check in on Tuesday. We'll see. Until then.......Be well.
M.

Hog wild

I think I missed last weeks entry. Not sure because I haven't looked but I was down with a sinus infection that is still kinda kicking my butt. I gained last week. 2.4lbs. and this week I gained a whopping 5.2lbs. This puts me over where I was when I came back from my vacation and beyond the mental number I had made my limit. All my pants are feeling tighter and there is no way my fat gut is squeezing into those black jeans tomorrow. Which leaves me with the dilemma of what do I wear tomorrow. I feel swollen. It's amazing how you don't notice how food makes your body swell when you always eat bad but you notice it immediately when you go from eating well to eating badly. It's time to get back in gear. It sucks because the holidays are coming and I have a lot of food planned that I will undoubtedly eat. That doesn't mean however that I can't be an angel the rest of the time. So as of today no more screwing around. I need to post  a loss next week. The week after that as well although I will probably not be able to post that week. I also have to stop making excuses and get back to the gym. Even if I can only go twice a week for the next few weeks it's a good start.
Until next week............Be well.
M