OK Panic!!!!!!!

I have gained for the second week in a row. 1.6lbs this week. :( What's worse is that I ate bad for 5 days straight. It's a wonder I didn't gain more and I won't be surprised if next week pays for it as well. Yesterday was my son's birthday so I did not go to the gym. Today is a Zumba day thankfully, so I will use that as a way to get back on track. (repeats to self - Nothing tastes as good as thin feels) I fear spiraling back into the fat life. I have too far to go to start slipping now. I'm not even half way! This is definitely something I have to put a stop too right away. I see myself using food as a comfort tool. Right now with the state my life is in I really need the comfort but I need to stay strong. I let myself go for a couple of weeks but I have to stop now or a small gain is going to turn into a big one. If I were a scientist studying myself I would be noting how quickly my body adapted to the fatty foods again. I would also note how quickly my energy was sapped away. I have been so tired for the last two days I can barely keep my head up. Lack of sleep isn't helping there either. It's a good lesson though. I can't stop. The healthy eating the exercise it's all a way of life. It's my life now. If I want to continue to lose weight and be more healthy, I need to keep it up. I think I'll try going to the gym on Thursday this week instead of Friday. It's going to be very hot on Friday. Wish me luck!

DON'T Panic!!!!!

Ok, I gained 2lbs. this week. This is a really bad trend I'm on but I'm not gonna get on myself too hard because I am going through some seriously bad life trauma right now. Times like this or going to happen in life. I hope not too often because right now it's a little ridiculous. I will be strict this week and turn it around. Keep your fingers crossed for me. :)

Doing better than I feel

I lost 3.8lbs this week. That's a real good week. So why do I feel so fat today? Over the previous 2 weeks I gained a total of 5.2lbs and i didn't feel as bad as I do today. I think it will just force me to work harder so that's good. I need to get the other 1.4lbs off so i can start counting over. :)

Life Happens.

Unfortunately, the one thing in life that can not be avoided is life. Everyone has struggles and everyone has their dark moments to survive. I can tell you that the past week and a half has been the darkest I have lived through since my mother died. I'm not going to get into the details but it's not over yet. I gained 1.2lbs last week after the 100lb celebration and the son's 18th birthday. This week I gained a staggering 4lbs. It was a tough blow but not at all surprising. I had some family gatherings and some drinking and I knew I was going to pay. I'm back on track now and I expect that weight to be gone in the next couple of weeks. Then I can focus on taking off the next 100lbs.