Welcome to the Hunger Games....

I am in my own arena fighting myself and losing. This week I came in with an 1.8lb. gain. This is certainly not the end of the world but definitely a step in the wrong direction. I made Wednesday my cheat day which paved the way for bad eating Wed. through Sun. My calf has proven to be a difficult injury to recover from and kept me out of the gym for the last week. At the end of it all it was a bad week. I did get a call from my doctor telling me that I no longer had to be on blood pressure medicine which is no small victory. She also told me that I shouldn’t be off my thyroid medicine and that it was probably making it harder for me to lose weight.  Funny to think I’ve lost 100lbs the hard way.  So tomorrow I will start back on my medication. May that will get me out of this weird funk that has left me basically in the same place I was in back in April. I really don’t want to have to deal with loose skin so I will have to be careful that I don’t start to lose too quickly but putting two weeks together of some real weight loss sure would feel good about now.  She told me that being off the medicine was probably making me sluggish which kind of makes sense since all the added energy I was seeing before seems to have disappeared. I’m hoping that next week will bring good things. I’m looking to get below 200lbs by Christmas. That gives me 4 months to lose 30+ pounds. I think I can.  Until then……Be well.

M

Doctor visits, torn muscles, and other fun things.

Another week over and I’m last to post. I went to my doctor for the first time in almost a year. I don’t usually go so long between visits but we had some scheduling conflicts. Anyway, needless to say she was very happy with my weight loss. It was a good ego boost. I tore my calf muscle during Zumba which has made my exercise routine difficult to say the least. I lost another 2lbs this week so that leaves me still up 4.6lbs since before vacation but back under the 100lb loss mark.  I look forward to shedding the remaining 4.6lbs and continuing on. I feel like I have been stuck in this fluctuating pattern for the last few months and it’s time to get some real movement going. If I can continue to lose 2lbs a week I will be within 20lbs of my goal by next April which would be the 2 year mark. That’s what I’m shooting for now.

Until next week…..be  well.

How stupid can the human body be?

Hello! It's weigh in day again and I lost 6.4lbs. That is nearly half the gain from vacation which goes to show it wasn't solid weight gain. I'm hoping that I can get the other half off within the next couple of weeks.
Today I'm pondering just how stupid the body can be. I was eating my Greek yogart at my regular snack time and someone was cooking something in the kitchen. I was thinking wow I'm really hungry. SERIOUSLY??? I was eating. How could I be hungry? Talk about not processing things properly. That was nuts. I guess that's how I know I'm an addict. That's why I could never be trusted to eat any other way than how I am now. I may have my little cheat days, (or weeks if I'm on vacation) but I could never just let myself go without carefully thinking about what I eat. I just don't think right when it comes to food. Scary really. Until next time......Be well.

the verdict is.....

Guilty of having an amazing time on vacation. I am so relaxed and I went to some amazing places and had a wonderful time. The down side of course that in my amazing wine filled adventures I gained 13lbs over the course of the entire vacation. Some of that is fluff weight and will come off quickly and the rest I will have to work for but it was worth it and now I'm refreshed and ready to get back to work. Until next week......Be well.

Over the hump

Finally, I manage to put two weeks of loss together. I lost 4.2lbs this week bringing me to a total of 105.2lbs off.  I’m feeling pretty good about that and rethinking my free for all vacation. Maybe I won’t go too crazy. I don’t want to undo all the good I’ve done. I’m sure I will not be on my best behavior but I don’t think I will go as overboard as originally intended. Until months end…….Be well.

Vacation on the mind.....

Hi,
 I should have posted on Wednesday but I just didn't have anything to say. I lost 3.2lbs but I didn't really feel like singing from the rafters about it. I've been doing so bad lately. The worst part is it's only a handful of bad days but it makes such a huge difference. Anyway, I leave for vacation on the 14th and I will be in radio silence for the next two Wednesdays. I am not taking my scale and fully intend to gain 10lbs. It will be an 11 day free for all. Although I will be having nightly BBQ and drinking I will also be doing plenty of outdoor activities so hopefully I can keep my muscles in shape. When I return I will need to really get my butt in gear. I am going to got to the gym Thursday this week so I can go on Saturday too. That way I have one last day of exercise before I fall into my days of debauchery. Until the 25th or so..... Be well.
M

What to say.....when your in a downward spirl?

Hello, I have to say I'm at a loss for words. I gained 2.2lbs for the second week in a row. Looking back at the log I keep I am the same weight I was a month ago and 2lbs more than 2 months ago. I guess I wouldn't sweat 2lbs over 2 months if I didn't know that I should be about 15lbs less. I mentioned several posts ago that I was in a very dark place in my life. Sadly that has not improved and clearly my resolve has been shaken by the events that have occurred. That is why I need to keep writing. I will overcome this and I will continue to lose the rest of the weight. I think it's important to realize that life can be very difficult and when it is we will falter. In the end though as long as I don't quit on myself I will find a way to get back on track. I feel myself in that 'I just don't care' attitude. It's the reason I always said I can't be trusted. The ironic thing is I'm not eating bad and I'm still exercising. It's just the weekends when I drink too much and I eat things I shouldn't. Clearly though it is too much and I need to regain control. I have two weigh in days before I go to my family reunion. I am going to buckle down til then and try and take off as much as I can because I'm not taking my scale when I go and I know I'll put some weight on those next 2 weeks. So by this time next month if I'm lucky I'll weigh the same as I do now. So much work but I know it will be worth it. I just can't ever give up on myself. Until next week. Be well.
M