what a week.

Hi,
  It's weigh in day again. This week I took off a somewhat startling 4.4lbs. My calorie intake has been much lower than it should be due to the fact that without a car I can only bring home as many groceries as I'm willing to walk a mile carrying. I'm sure walking all that way made a difference too. I also came down with a pretty bad cold that left me with a primary diet of tea. I guess it was a perfect storm of events but I'm concerned that one, I'm getting sick too often. So I think it's time to seriously consider that multivitamin. Secondly, I'm loosing too fast so I need to get a car (which I think I have found) because I need to get enough food so I can slow the loss back down to 2lbs a week. My worst fear is doing all this work only to find I'm left with a thin body and yards of baggy skin. I am feeling stronger though. I notice muscle definition in my legs which is nice. My jean's are beginning to get loose again so I will need to go shopping soon for another pair. I also hit another milestone in my plan which is 275lbs. That is such a huge number but coming from 335lbs it's a huge improvement. Of course with the scale change and the 2lb differential it's really a 57lb loss but that's nothing to scoff at. However, no matter how much better I feel I am in no way delusional enough to think that 275lbs is good. So I continue on.
M

Life sure knows how to kick you when your down.

Hi,
  Please forgive me if i'm a little depressing this week. My car died yesterday, as in I have to find a way to buy a new one died. It couldn't have come at a worse time because after taking my step daughter to school I have had no money. My kids are living off mac n cheese and ramen noodles and since I can't eat that it's a steady diet of cereal and brocolli for me. I lost 3lbs this week which is not as good as it would be if I were eatting enough. This has been one of the most stressful weeks of my life and that is really saying alot since I was a single mom for 3 years. Through all the trouble I am still doing my Zumba classes and it helps relieve alot of the stress. I would be a mess without that to look forward too. I'm also lucky to be blessed with a helpful family for support so at least I have a light at the end of the tunnel. Hopefully next week I can buy some healthier food and we can all eat properly but until then the struggle continues. On the bright side the weight is still coming off and tomorrow for better or worse will be another day. Here's hoping next week brings a happier post.

50LBs Less!!

Pardon me if I ramble today but I haven't had a lot of sleep. I almost forgot to weigh in again this morning mostly because I forgot it was Wednesday. The holiday is messing with my head I guess. Anyway I lost another 1.6lbs which means I have reached a total of 50lbs lost. I'm pretty happy about that although I still have a long way to go this is very good progress. I don't know if it's because of the loss that I am noticing my spare tire more but my lower abdomen is making me crazy. That weight is by far the most annoying thing on my body at the moment. I'm hyper aware of it. This is an off week for Zumba which means I have no class for 2 weeks straight but when we start again next week we will be adding ab exercises. I'm really hoping this helps. I just want all this fat off me. I know it will take time and slow and steady wins the race but it's tiring. I just want to be thin. This fat feels gross. I'm surprised I didn't feel that before. I feel it hanging on me and I want it gone.

It's hard to believe but after almost 6 months of getting on the scale every Wednesday I actually forgot to weigh in yesterday. So this week weigh in day is today.  I spent most of last week sick and as a result sleeping more than anything. I also missed my last two zumba classes. I really didn't know what to expect and I was pleased to see that I had lost another 2.8lbs making my total 48lbs lost! I'm getting to the point where people are starting to ask me 'how much weight have you lost' and I'm thinking that question is going to become embarrassing to answer. Not that I'm not proud of what I'm accomplishing but I'm not looking to shout 'hey guess what i used to be 50lbs more than I am now and yeah I'm still fat'. When that total is 100lbs and I'm still really heavy it's not going to feel good to admit I was that big. Mind you it's not as embarrassing as being as big as I was I just don't think I want to make a big deal about it. Maybe I'll start down playing my numbers. So when i reach my goal of 120lbs I can just smile and say 'oh yeah I lost 35lbs all together.   :-)  I see these people on Yahoo lately who lost 102lbs or 170lbs and I think I never want to be that person. I'd like to just quietly take off 215lbs shhhhh don't tell anyone. It will be our secret and if I can do it slowly enough maybe no one will notice. So far it's working. lol. That's not entirely true. Recently, people have begun to notice and make comments about how good I look and that does make me feel good but I just think as far as anyone needs to know we can keep my numbers small.

I'm happy to say I got up and started walking in the right direction. This has been a really difficult week for me in all parts of my life. I was very happy to see the scale this morning registering a 6.4lb loss. That tells me that last weeks gain was fluff. So I'm feeling pretty good today. My total loss as of today is 45lbs. I'm proud of that total but then I've been here before. I need to loose it all not just some so I keep going.

Hello world,
  It's been a bit since I was away on vacation and there was no Internet access on the lake. I arrived at the lake house on Tuesday and knowing I had to weigh in the next day (yes I brought my scale with me) I was good the first night. I was rewarded with a 2 and a half pound loss. Wednesday we went on a wine tour. It was a great deal of fun but I had far too much to drink. Overall I was very well behaved all week. The only really bad thing I ate was half a piece of cheese cake which admittedly is very bad. The big issue was that I was with my family and we drank too much most of the time. I knew that I would pay this week but nothing could have prepared me from this morning. I almost forgot it was weigh in day. I kinda wish I had. Not even 2 days of Zumba in a row could save me from the alarming 4.2lb gain I was greeted with this morning. Part of me feels like the scale must be wrong but I know weight loss isn't easy and weight gain is too easy.  The fact is I spent 3 days drinking liquid fat and that is the result. So, I came home on Saturday and got right back on track. That's all I can do. The gain is in my past and now I move forward. Today is a new beginning and I'm not going to beat myself up over my mistakes. This is a long road I'm on and if I occasionally need to sit down at the side of the road and take a break that's fine. As long as I don't turn back when i get up and start walking in the wrong direction I'll get to my destination eventually. :)

Good Morning, it's weigh in day again. This week I went out and bought a weight watchers scale because I have heard they are supposed to be very accurate. Well, I used my old scale this morning which gifted my hard work with a 3lb weight loss. I was very pleased with this. I then hoped on the weight watchers scale. Hmmm this scale credited me with a 5lb. loss. I think I'll play it safe and count from the old scale. Yay 3lbs. that's awesome and I'm happy with that. Next week I will begin counting down from the new scale and I will just leave that 2lbs in limbo where I'm sure it belongs. On a much more important note then scale drama I feel great today. I noticed right when I woke up this morning that my 'back fat' ( those of you who have it know what I mean) had gone down and that my legs felt slimmer on the outer thighs. All those squats finally paying off. Of course the difference is in millimeters and it is only noticeable to me. I have lost a total of 41lbs. now and I'm very proud of myself. Not a soul notices or says anything but I don't let it get to me.  I know one day I'll reach the point when I have lost over 100lbs and someone will finally look at me and say 'have you lost weight?' to which I will promptly reply 'I don't know maybe a few pounds'. :)  Next week is my vacation in wine country (well NY wine country). It could be a real test for me or maybe I will paddle out to the middle of the lake in a canoe with my copy of Walden and commune with nature. I may not have Internet out there so it may be a while before you hear from me again but I will be back.